Well, I have been doing a lot of reading and watching TV lately....what am I saying I do that all the time...never mind lately, but have noticed something lately that I have never noticed before. WAIT....I'm getting ahead of my self. Recently I have read the book Artie Lange...Too Fat To Fish. First off let me tell you a fucking great book, even if your not a fan of Artie's or the Howard stern show. If you are a fan of the Howard Stern show then you know that Howard has always been as honest as possible on his show and believes that Honesty makes for funny and great radio. Artie, in this tell all book, has taken this philosophy to heart with his book.
Honesty is what we are talking about now in this here blog entry. Well, am going to write about a honest observation about myself. I am a fucking sappy mother fucker. I think I have always been that way but have for the most part been able to hide it. Except for a few times when I have lost my mind and let the emotions flow. But! The terrible but....I have noticed more recently that I have been having trouble hiding my sensitive side. Thankfully these lapses in my emotional stability have come at times when I have been all by myself.
But that's not really the disturbing part. It's what I am getting all choked up about is what concerns me. While I was reading Artie's book...I found out that that guy has really been through some fucked up shit. But, there were things in the book that actually brought a tear to my eye. Which doesn't really happen to me when I read books.
The next thing that happened, when my balls took a hiatus, was that I was watching the show Private Practice. I know I know most of my guy friends will probably say "Well there's your problem Ben, YOUR GAY!!!! Not that there is anything wrong with that!" But, I can't help it that show and it's predecessor just have their hooks in me. Good thing I balance myself out with very manly shows such as 24, Rescue Me, and Lost. Now to be honest(cause that's what we're talking about here) I started watching the two girl shows because they have very attractive women on them. But! They have very deep content and are very interesting. My friends would say, "No, you really are GAY!" But so what I enjoy some sappy TV...but now I the shows are bringing tears to my eyes. What the Fuck?
Oh well. their is my big Revelation. I cry now for things that I never cried at before. I'm not sure but it may have to be because of my son. I love him and will always love him but having a child really does affect you in more ways than one.
Well if Honesty is the best policy then I hope you enjoyed this post. It was Honest...I'm not sure how funny it is but it's at the least Honest. But as honest as I am or hope to be there will be things that I have done, seen, heard that will go with me to my grave. And that is the HONEST TRUTH!
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