God, Jerry Garcia, and Me!!!!!

Wow, how's that for a title? Sounds like a bad joke...but...before we get to the joke let's get down to the nitty gritty. First things first I would like to start with God. I currently believe that their is a God and that he gave up his only son so that I could get into heaven. I also currently am the worst Christian ever....well maybe not as bad as some of those lapsed Catholics but I'm not judging anybody else. I believe in God but I don't live the life that I am supposed to. I am currently looking for a church that I like but am so freaking lazy that I just don't look. I think that for now I will try to attend the church that my beautiful wife Carla attends and is becoming a well involved member of, so that at least I can hear the word of God. Now, I will have to open my heart, soul and mind up to the word and not the person speaking the word and their interpretations. I will have to let the word speak to me. The reason I say this is that I don't feel comfortable in the church (mentally and physically) but as long as I get the word in God will speak to me through his written word.

Maybe someday I will get off my lazy but and find my own church again. My favorite churches, where I felt I got the most out of God and his word were small churches where the body of the church worked together because they were so small. People would band together and set up chairs for the service and subsequently take down the chairs after the service was over. Now this church has a small church family but I don't know what it is it just rubs me the wrong way. I myself feel, and some people reading this may say your just lazy and judgemental. but I don't feel right and hopefully something will come my way so that I may get the fellowship that I need.

Now, the second part of the title...Jerry Garcia...now I am currently reading a book...well three books right now. One of the books is called "In the Spirit" written by Wendy Weir. This book is a book about Wendy's interaction with Jerry Garcia's spirit during a time period after Jerry Died. Now I have never been one to enjoy Jerry's music. Frankly I think that the Greatful Dead only have two good songs and they are Casey Jones and truckin and even then they arent' that great. I have been asked by people to listen to the music and honestly I have tried. To me most of the music is very bad and out of tune and a live album forget it fucking terrible. I appologize to all the Dead Heads out there but sorry that's just how I feel. Now the book. As I am reading it I feel that most of the book is a crock of shit and this women Wendy Weir, Bob Weir's sister, Bob was adopted by her parents(incase you were wondering), is using the death of a musical icon (to alot of people just not me) to make money, sell books and publish her beliefs.

I personally think she is a whack job talking about spirits, souls, devil hounds and dragons but some of here messages are ok. It's her way of dealing with spirituality. It's almost like she is trying to have her own religion where Jerry Garcia is God. Now she will not admit to this nor does she in the book but that's the way it comes across to me. in the book.

Now, the joke: It's God, Jerry Garcia and me in a boat and the boat is sinking. We empty all of the cargo off the boat to try to keep the boat from sinking. Once we get all the stuff off we realize we are still sinking and God says one of us has to go over board and most likely will die. God and I look at each other and then we look at Jerry. "you have to go Jerry" We tell him. "why me?" asks Jerry. "Well, Your music sucks," God and I say simultaneously. "Plus," God Says, "their is some whack job trying to make you out to be a god." Jerry can't really argue...i mean it is God you know. Jerry goes overboard and drowns. God and I look at each other and we realize that the boat is still sinking. "God, who has to go now?" i ask God. "He looks at me and says fear not my son I can save you and me...I can walk on water," God replied. "Oh yeah, right, then why didn't you save Jerry too?," I asked. "Even though I am all powerful and all knowing, even I couldn't keep both you fat asses afloat!"

Not sure if that joke is funny of not. let me know. I laughed my ass off when I made it up though but I have a weird sense of humor.